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Saturday, December 19, 2009

continuation of my previous post..^.^


REMEMBER I SAID I TOOK PICTURES OF MY PAST PICTURES..LOL...HERE R SOME...the then n the nows pic..lol...dam big diff...even i cant believe it..!!...DAMMIT..!!...

WELL DO ENYOY... ^.^





i forgot how old was it..lol...i think i was primary erm...sumting...lol
boomzz..!!..THIS IS FORM 2 OR 3..LOLOLL
samez
AND ANOTHER ONE
FORM 5.....TADAAA
FORM 5
FORM 5
first year of my diploma
second n last year of my diploma...^.^


back in kk..!!

HARLOWW HARRLOWW PPL...its been long since i updated my bloggie...lol...today is my ermm...2nd day back...kinda ok...im not getting bored...YET..!!..hahaha...anyway....finally came home... n back to my room... its been awhile.. :/.... my stuff r still neatly on my table...n my bed is constantly cleaned by my lovely DADDY..!!..waiting for me to come back...so here i am..:)...trying my best not to go out so often...lol..n its only the second day....owh...i found loads of pic..!!...those tat are damm ancient...!!..lolololololol...!!...i took picture of those picture coz i kinda lazy wan2 scan..!!..gahahahah....will post them up soon...no worries...when im bored...i will....:)....really really hope tomorrow doent rain...I WANA PLAY TENNIS..!!...DAMMIT..!....STOP RAINING...!!...:(....ok tats all for now....much loves from KOTA KINABALU..!!..

MISSINGDEWSIREEISSUMONEE^.^

Saturday, December 12, 2009

UGHH..!!..

I CANNOT TAKE IT..!!..DAMIIT..!!
can u plz..!!...if u think im treating u like shit....TRY WE SWITCH PLACES FOR ONE DAY...only one day...then u would no HOW THE F R U TREATING ME..!!..for once juz shut up n i would be happy..not a single word of congrats watsoever...he only thing ur good at...IS F-ING up my life..FOR ONCE..if u could achieve wat i have..THEN yes...i would agree...if not...JUZ SHUT THE FUCK UP N LET ME LIVE IN PEACE ...!!..i cant even live my life without u fucking everything up.. so wats the point... ...sumtimes i jus pity u... !!...FOR BEING TO SELF CENTERED N BRAINLESS..!!..juz 2 more years...n i dont need tog ive a fuck bout u...I DONT EVEN NEED TO LOOK AT U EVERYDAY OF MY LIFE ANYMORE..!!..i dont even noe why did i hesitated when i had the chance to leave..!!..i feel so stupid now ....coz of the sympathy i have on u... i mean why should i..u never had it anyway..ugh..!!.. if i could go back...i would never had given up tat chance..!!.. juz let u be alone...WITH NO ONE..!!..juz u...since like tat...U COULD LIVE BETTER.
then i really wan2 noe...how the fuck u leave without ppl helping u... wat u think i m ..ur maid..!!...UGHH..!!..DAMMITT..im supposed to be happy...i got my diploma...i achieved sumting...!!...becoz of u...I DONT FEEL SHIT..!!..becoz of u..!!...for once be happy for me...!!...JUZ ONE TIME..!!..is tat so hard ...??... GAHH

Thursday, December 10, 2009

GRADUATED...!!!

guess wat ppl....we r now officials diploma holders...n sooner...we will be degree holderss..!!..my gatss time really pass by damm fast....cant seem to keep tract of all the stuff we did as a batch..!!...had loads of dun with each n everyone of my frenss...to bad it ended so soon...2 years....JUZ LIKE TAT..!!...im very grateful fo have frens like all of u...^^....wish everyone all the best in the future...as for the continuing students..!...WE SHALL FIGHT AGAIN....FOR YEST ANOTHER 2 YEARS TO COME..!!...happy hollss ....^^....to everyone..!!...

Monday, November 30, 2009

its been awhile...

harrloww ppl...^^...its been awhile since ive updated my blogiee....
finals is in 1 day time...24 HOURS..!...my gatss...how scary is tat..!!...
been studin alittle here n there...everywhere...!!..lol....:/... even though we r all superb stress...we still can spend some time HAVING FUN..!!..^^... to bad i cant join them to our last group trip together gether..wel...being the youngest is not so fun huh..:/....well...hope they have fun....:/...n take lots a pic...^^.... i still cant believe tat im in my final term d..!...SO FAST..!!..timereally fly.....well..next year not all of us would be continuing d...:/....hopefully we all still keep in touch...^^...ok tats all..gtg...STUUDDYY..!!....WEEEE...!!!....^^

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

WHY CANT I FOCUS..!!..

ughh...i need to study lah..!!...always half way...my brain duno go where d..!!...then....go back again..!!..PRO UNTILL..!!..we r having french this Thursday...hopefully everything goes well..I HOPE..!!..n then nest week...oral..then then..the week after...FINALSS OF THE FINALS..!!...i stress i tell u..!!...where to start which one to start..!!...!??!?!?!?!?!??!....hope everything goes well for this particular 3 weekss...plzz lahh...O.o...!!...n to everyone else who is having exams also...ALL THE BEST N LUCKSS...^.^

^.^DESIREE^.^

Monday, November 16, 2009

stressfull timess..!!

MY GATSS...eeeeesss stresss..!!...but still have time to enjoy ...:)...
currently...our new study spot for this term is MYCAFE...tadaaa...!!...
lol..yeaa...duno why...everyone goes there...at least we do...lol...
kinda stress now...STRESS ABOUT EVERYTHING..!!..gaahh
juz got boomed by mommy...ALL THOSE LAST MIN CHANGES...the best part is...
i cant do shit bout it...coz u noe why..??..COZ SHE IS MY MOM..!...=.='
saad case ei...but..owh well..wat to do..
forced to go back to kk...N DO NTH..!!..ughh...JUZ THINKIN BOUT IT..makes me feel BORED already..!!...i cannot imagine wasting my time doin absolutly nth..!!..UGH..!!.. i hate having nth to do..duno where to go..!!..the feeling of sienszzz nezz isss like helll..!!!...but i cant do anything bout it...I REALLY DO HOPE TAT I GET TO COME BACK ASAP..!!..i mean...i still gona go back during CNY wadd..!!...go back so many times..!!...i love my family okaayy..!!..I MISS THEM MUCHIESS...!!..but then...i hate doin nth..!!...wasting my time..!!...ugh..!!i feel tat life is a waste to do nth..!!...i wan2 spend time with frenss tat r no longer continuing their degree..!!...im surely gona miss those times we all joke around...play around..!!...even though there are ups n downs along the way..BUT I STILL ENJOYED EVERY MIN OF IT..!!..
^.^DESIRE^.^

Monday, October 12, 2009

GENESIS...!!!!...:D

wow...I SO MISSS HAVING PRACTICESES..!!...now like dam sad d..lol..its was nice..the whole thing....hehe...loved it...:)...after the event...i lost my voice..hahahahha.... can u imagine...1 WEEK....MAXIMUM 3 STICKS ONLY OWH..!!!....PER DAY LAH...but still...cant eat fry food...cant drink cold stuff...water only..!!!...but then..IT WAS FUN..!!!...I LOVEZZZZ IT..!!!..:)...hehe...im repeating..llol..hahaha...but it ended so soon..:(...oweee wwweelll...ok..back to TERM 6 MODE..!!..OMGG..GAAAHHH..STRESSS TILL..!!

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

recent stuff

hmm ...let me c...wat can i say....first week of college...im feelin the stress d...=.='....lol...seriously...our last term...WEIRD..!!..gahh...im not sure bout degree...which one to pick...it concerns bout my future...so im afraid...so many things in my mind...dont really noe which one to think first...gahhh...sleepless nites....well no entirely sleepless...mayb slept aroud 5am or 6am...GAHH..=.='... i dont really noe why...but then...my mind kinda wont stops thinking...i should sleep more..lol....i juz duno how to make myself not to think n sleep....i cant..my mind wont listen...it juz keeps on thinking n thinking...so many things...n it all concerns about my studiess...ugh....so jammed up...=.='...i really wosh i had this button to stop it for awhile juz so tat i could rest juz for my nites...haihss...
crazynezz....juz imagine...IMAGINE MY DEGREE YEARSS...gaahh...i mean everyone i noe sayd tat degree would be even more worst...!!!...i hope its not..:(...haih...k lah...tats all for now...tata ppl...will update...soon..lol

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

jus did sumting AAWWWWEEESSOSOSOSOOSOOOMMMEEEEE TIIILLLL....
will upload the pic...TEHEEEE.....buahhahahahhahahhahaha.....stay tune pplz..

UGHH....

SOMEONE...OR SHOULD I SAY AN ASS HOLE STOLE MY NOTE BOOK..!!!...BAAABIIII....UGHH..EVERYHTING IS INSIDE...I NEED IT FOR MY TERM 6....F TAT ASS...UGHH....ROOOOTTTTTTTTTTTTTEEEEE IN HEELLLL...!!!>...UGHH...!!!...PUTAIN..!!!...WHOEVER U R....UR AN ASS..TAT HAS NO BRAINSS...!!!...ughh ..i so bengang now..!!!...MY BOOOK.....T.T....!!!....all my recipes....all my methiodss notess...everything...gone..!!!...babi u ...!!!..ughh...!!!!GAAAAHHHH...:(....

anyway...next week is my final assesments for this term...lol..still have 3 assignment due soon...one this friday..another one is by next friday...lol....ugh..!!...anyway...luckss t everyone....teheee

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

had a ermm....quite a lucky day..:/

hmmm...ok where to strart...welll today...my first class was french..then...had to stone at library to finish up some assignment...then after that.....ARTISTIC SKILLSS CLASS...one of my fav...:)....but today wat friut carving day...soo...i kinda sucked...but...i managed to get 14/15...soo...i felt very lucky already...then...my mazipan....i got the same marks...now tat one i tot i could get higher....sooo..yeaa..but..im gratefull..:/...then...went makan with ma group of frens....after that...NOW HERE IS THE LUCKY PART...c im driving today....n as a normal malaysian driver...i break the rulels...which is quite common..:>....hehe...anyway....i do it all the time...at tat certain area...but..well...after i 'broke the rule'...using a road tat is not ment to be used the way i used it...(m i confusing u..??..)...lol....anyway...then...guess wat...i saw...BLUE FLICKERING LIGHTS behind me..FYI...its the police...i was like...OMGG....MCB.....tat time..i was..shiittt....my parents r so gone kill me....but then..i opened my window....n heres the conversation

me- ermm..hehe..hi..??
police-kenapa guna jalan tu...tak boleh tau...
me- ermm...heh...
police- lesen n ic...
me- owh okok....(owh shit owh shit)
police- wua masih mudah ah...
me- yeaa..heh ^.^...
police-kerja mana..??
me-owh im a student
police- apa..???!?!?!?!
me-owh...SAYA MASIH BELAJAR...
police-..owh masih belajar yeh...jadi..?/..nak saman tak ni
me-tak nak lah....^.^...heh..
polce- jadi kalau tak saman cham mana
me- heh..masih belajar lah...tak da duit...shows my empty wallet...:)..it really works
police-haih...ok lah...tapi lain kali jangan buat lagi
me..owhh okokokokokokokokokokokok....thank u....:)...
police-shakes head n walks away..
me- FILLED WITH JOY

so tats why i feel lucky...:)...so anywaw...its gona be 1am soon...need to bath...
gtg....:)....will update asap...:)..hehe
^.^DESRE^.^

Thursday, August 27, 2009

UPDATE WOR..!!

HEY PPL...LONDA TIME DIDNT UPDATE D......:D...hehe....quite busy with my studies n stuff...alot of stuff to think....:/.....damm lame...lol...haha....n now i don't Noe wat to day liao...haha...owh yea...had this weird dream...but its so...real...lol...SCARED THE HELLL OUTA MYSELF....lol....ahaha...m still laughing bout it..actually..hahah....hmmm....gona have my finals soon..then...term 6...OMG...time really flys...SO FAST....then....u never noe...im graduating my degree d...lol...HOPEFULLY....hahahaha...lol....:D...ok...i duno wat to say liao..k lah...tata

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

SLEEPY...!!i

im so sleepy....O.O...sumore need to wait till 2 am...OMGG..:(...dammm...FHM...haih..sleepyy worr...:(....so i guess ill wake myself up by typing crap ya...so sorry if im putting in crap....did i mention tat im bored...=.='......lamee rite...omgg..haih...im waiting..n waiting...waiting...faster lah...why so sloww....IM WAITING LAH..!!..:(..waiting for wat..??for sumone...??..for who..??....not tellin...??..why nt tellin...??..coz this is a public post..??..why not..??..cozz everyone whom is anyone will read it..wohh i c..!!...OMGG....IM TALKING TO MYSELF..AHHH...IMS STONING..!!>..=.=.==.=..=.=.=.=.=.=.....:(....heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....<3

Monday, August 10, 2009

my mind is goin nuts

FUNNY FUNNY N VERY FUNNY...tats all..=.='...i dont noe why...i dont noe how...juz like tat...wats rong with me..!..ahhh...killmaself...=.='...heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee......:/...

STATUS:I DONT GET ME..:/

Friday, August 7, 2009

recent update...^.^

well..i kinda long didnt update my bloggie d...so...haha...since i got back my connection...so..heh...update luu....well...hmmm...alot of stuff happened...some good some bad....even though almost 60 to 70% of iy was bad....life goes on rite..??..even though i dont think like tat during that period of time....but..slowly...ill still move on with life...:D...hehe....im still seeking....seeking..!!...:D...hehe...but yea...wat goes around comes around....ok... recently...my lappi kinda died...i meant the wifi...duno why cant detect...=.='....almost 2 weeks no lappie ...dam sad wei...:(....then...finally....today..i went n fix it n u noe...when i told the tech guy wats the prob...he check....slick here click there....then...HE TOLD ME..!!..my wifi thingy inside my lappie....BURNED...=.='...lol....so i had 2 options....1...change the burned one inside n fix in a new one..which will cost me....RM180...or buy an external one...which will only cost me RM60...so...obviously...i went for the cheaer one....then..coz one of the key on my keyboard...ROSAK*came out*...so..i asked...since i was there rite...how much to change....i expected the price to be....at most RM 80 OR 90...BUT BUT BUT....tat tech guy BOMB me with a price....RM250....!!....omgg...i was like....O.o.....OMGG...WTF..WUAAA.....soo exx....T.T...so i decided not to change...since i dont really need the tat key...n ITS SO EXX..!!...T.T....so my lappie have to look injured for now...:(....well....if u ask em to invest on tat stupid peace of keyboard jus bcoz one key came out..!!...DREAM ON....i could invest on my pastry stuff...ITS MORE WORTH IT...at least i use it rite..!!...mayb gone preatice my butter cream art this sat ...if i got the time....ill try to find ppl to bring me to bake with yen...coz i have no idea how to go...so yea...LOL...hahhaa....then...im planning to buy a whole set of piping tubes...:D...hehe....:D....im trying to save money also lah...!!...but then...use on sumting tat is worth it ...its ok rite....since i didnt spend for soooooo lllooonnnggggggggg d...:)...so...a small little investment wont hurt...I THINK...hehe..lol..k lah...need to do assignment..!!...UGH...I HATE IT..!!..:(...but still have no choice...:(..owh well...tata ppl...:D....will try to update A.S.A.P...
^.^DESIRE^.^

Friday, July 24, 2009

yet another week...

:/...im still kinda moody bout the same thing...but hopefully
ill get over :/...i wish i coould lah...asap...coz...life still goes on...:/..
now im freakin bored...using my sis lappie....coz my lappie duno why sumting rong..:(...need to go fix it again...dam bad wei..!!...:(...n...ermm..class was ok...everything was fine...:D...juz got hit by afew assignments...:/...hopw i could handle it lah...:/...n financial math..its okok lah...but ...still needs mre practice ...:D...hehe...law... still duno how the Q n A r like...so...cant really judge yet...but overall...other than my studies...its ok luu..:D..still manage to survive...for how long..??..well tat one...i dont noe...ok tata tats al..im off to eat my BUBUR..!!..:D...

Thursday, July 23, 2009

...

HOW I WISH...!!..
I WISHH..!!.
WIISSSHHHHH...>!!!!!!
:(

Sunday, July 19, 2009

..

i never wanted it....
but why izit happening..
:(...T.T...
im so depressed rite now..!!

yesterday n today ..lol. ...

well...yesterday went to watch harry potter...which eneded up like total RUBBISH..!!...ughh...this movie is by far one of the worst movie ever made..!!my gatss...killmyself owh..!!...n the popcorn at cathay is soo ex compared to tgv n gsc lah..lol..:D...anyway...forgot to mention tat we watched at The curve...lol...12am show..=.='...the movie ended aroud 3.15am.then after that we went back.ok heres the best part of yesterday or shall i say this morning...=.='..when we were on our way back to subang....duno which BRILLIANT ASS HOLE.!!..go put a 'i have no idea wat' on the right side of the road...which ended up both tyres got punctured...omg.. we were kinda shocked coz the impact during this incident was quite erm...surprising...wel...then...we had to call the tow ppl to rescue us..=.='...i mean the car...lol..then...we asked another fren to send us back..but before that...guess wat...WE WENT FOR A NOT SO HEARTY BREAKFAST...=.='...cool rite...LOL..haha...then today...woke up aroud 12.30pm...coz of my alarm...=.='...today i supposedly have an appointment with clinique specialist for face check up...but....lol..due to over sleepy n lazyness..i postponed it to next week....after class...lol...then went lunch at pyramid ermm around 3 sumting like tat...popeyes....DAM BOMB..!!..wasted my money eating there...why..??..coz their food there is overly salted n floured...=.='....portion is soo small...n the mashpotatoe is like eating gravy with 90% of MSG..!!...now tats whhy..!!..ugh..then...went home...sleep again..hhahaha...i slept around erm...5 or 6...i forgot...woke up around erm..10pm....=.=..lol rite..i ate prawn mee instant noodles with prawn..!!..:D..then...for dessert...mcd ace-cream n diet coke..lol...i only took dessert coz my bro forced me to....he wanted me to eat...ANOHTER SET..!!!>..KILLMYSELF OWH..!!...ugh...=.=....now...the time is around ermm..2am...=.='...lol...n im not sleepy...n i think my sleeping hours are officialy all jumbled up...=.='...

Monday, July 13, 2009

wow..!!..

hmmm....wat can i say...okay..today..wass ok...had fianacial class...i actuelly understand..haha..then...was forced to go to this talk bout sumting..haha...but but but...at least i get to c this hawt guy rite...buahahahhahaha.....:D...teheee....n the curry is really yummy..!!...:D...tehee...^.^...n ermm..after that...haha..went to pyramid...ATE SUSHI..!!!...MUAAA MUAA..I LVOE U SUSHI..!!...:DD...itss like forever since i ate sushi..!!..hehe...tehee...then...calss..pastry..made black forest..:D...then...terus i go to the next class...kitchen..:/...ok..at least i did better then the previous class..:D..hehe..then...dam tired...we all wanted to go mcd..then..manatau...sumting hapen.!!...dammit..fren car kena pecah the window..!!..dammitt...damm..damm bomb d..=.='...hope everything is ok lah...haih..then..mcd then...noww..HOME..!!..:D...hehe...then...noww..BATH N SLEEP..!!...tres sleepy..!!..till no comment d..lol..hehe...well...today...my happiest..??..I GET TO EAT SUSHI..!!...N MY LOVELY GREEN TEA PARFAIT.!!..MUAXXX..!!..:D...I LOVE GREEENNN TEEEAAA..!!!...TEEEHHEEE...k lah...tata for now..:D...tata..!!...NITESS PPL..!!!...*CANT WAIT FOR MY NEW CHEF JACKET..!!*

^^DESIRE^^

Friday, July 10, 2009

ughh...!!.. .FTS..!!... .DAMMITT..!!

u noee..when u really never use ur brain n think further b4 u do sumting...!!...omgg...owhh ya im talkin bout me..!!...ughh...the feeling of regret iss soooo...HIGH..!!..:(...if i juzz knew wat was comin my way...wat decision i will make...I WOULD NEVER EVER DO SUCH THING..!!...NEVER..!!...but i guess haih..!!...big big mistake...!!...sumting i shouldnt doo..!!..n noww...how i wish i could go back n change myself..!!...ughh..!!..makes me hate shopping so much..!!...:(...dammit..!!>..tats life rite..!!...FULL OF REGRETSS...:(...aih..!!..i seriously..!!...HAVE NTH TO SAY BOUT MYSELF D..!!..:(...hope it would really happen....hope tat i will be forgiven n wont be punished...i promise i wont do it again....i woudl stop..!...sumting...*hehe*...if i would make it happen..!!...im stopping...i will my last stick with me now...the last one...for covering what i had done.....n improving myself...:/...haih...i really hope my stupid mistake wont pull me back from my dream..i really wish it wont..!!...:(...T.T...!!!...i hope everything goes well...ill pray hard..!!...VERY HARD..!!...i noee...when u need sumting then u regret..when u dont need...u never really bothered...im sorry...i really am...im sorrryyyy....m trying to improve myslef...this whole dream tat i hope will become reality....is my only concern rite now.....ONLY THAT..!!...:/....hopee really hopee....it WILL BECOME REALITY..!!!!!!!!....
T.T..DESIRE..T.T....*CROSSES FINGERS N PRAY HARD..!!*

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

first day of college n so on..!!..

hmm let me see....for our group...first day was...OMGG...=.='..we had financial math in da morning followed by LAW...then...PASTRY..!!..THEN KITCHEN..!!....total time duration..??...till...11..=.='....dammit..!!...SUMORE FIRST DAY..!!!...
ANYWAY...
our law lecturer dam funny wei...she has a very thick britsh accent ...damm cool..tehee...n she is sooo funny...no comment till..!!..hahaha....n we got chef may as our pastry..she is very nice..:D...n good..:D...willing to teach n very patient..:D...hehe...n for kitchen we got chef fredric...he is funny too..haha..but yeaa...i doo need to improve alot more lah..lol..haha...like seriously..!!...anyway..hehe...today..second day...the time dam funny....12.30 french..then...artistic skills ....6PM..!!...LIKE WTF..!!...we have like 3 hours break...=.='...LOL..!!...ugh..n our french lecture is so...ermm..chinese..!!..she..i mean very different lah...in a sence that she is no fun at all...n her pronounciation is funny too..dammm chinese...=.='..which mad me miss my previous lecturer...=.='...mr YBC...=.='...lol..haih...went to pavilion during my break with sis..wanted to buy bag n heels..n was hunting for a good facial wash...:D..hehe..but...heels...lo have my size..!!...its either to big or to small dammit..!!...sumore dam cheap wei...RM30 only..!!..GONE..!!...=.=''then...went to dermalogica to ask bout their cleanser. but....kinda to exx lah...i mean sumore their stuff...quite strong ...:/...soo i say ill think bout it lah...then...wanted to go mng n get the bag i saw few days ago...but on my way there i went clinicque...:D....asked bout also...then..they explain n tried on my face....quite nice..;D...so i ended u buying tat...the damage..??..u dont wan2 noe...!!...i noe i noee..i spent alot d...but..i seriously need a good one tat actuelly works lah...:/...soo since the damamge was sooo big..ill say bye bye to tat bag i saw :(...owhh well...bags can buy another time rite..:/...huhuhuh..owhh well...N I WAN2 SAVE....n im not gona shop for so many things d..:/...coz i spent alot on clinicque..:/...sooo....yeaa..hehe....tehee...kay lah...tats all..dam tired now..:/...gtg sleeps d..tehee...tata....NITESS..!!..

Sunday, July 5, 2009

BACK FROM MELAKA ...

hmm...letss c...im back..??..haha...went to melacca with parentss...WAS FORCEDD TO ACTUELLY..!!>.OMGG...aih...anyway...the ride there wass...OMFFGG..!!...FTS MAN..!!>..ughh..anyway...itss okok...i guess...food is ok....weather is..OMGG...HWATSS TILL..!!...ARGHH..!!...NO COMMENT TILLL..!!...but B4 TAT..!...HAHA...went out with frenss..n stuff..owhh yaa..anyway...hahaha....we went to places i dont noe where..gaga....lol..haha...n ermm...stonneed..!!!...=.=...lol.rite...n i think i gain weight d..!!>..AHH.....ARGHH....k lahh...tats all..i dont really noe wat to say d..haha...wan to upload pic...but kinda lazz..soo..hahaha....go my fb lah...sure lots of pic...SOON..hahahha...k lah...tata...

Monday, June 15, 2009

m bored...juz small update...:/

hmm...im kinda sleepy rite now but i cant sleep...n i dont noe why..LOL...
so since i have nth better to do...teheee...well...lots have happened the past few weeks....from training to parents...to talking bout my future...haihzz...all of these = to STRESS looo....:(...but this is life rite...juz have to face it....sumtimes i juz wish everything would juz stop..!!..butt....reality is..haih....
when the moment u think n wonder why time juz wont move..??..i when the time u realise its u whos not ..... then...when u felt tat time juz flew bye without saying goodbye....how u wish u could juz stop n go back to tat lovely moment..:/...there r lots of regrets...lots of mistakes...but things happen..??..with or without a reason...it life..??.... n now i also realized tat my post is kinda emo...=.='...lol...yeaa...words juz flow through my brain...so i typed it out in words...:D....heh...tats all...gtg...tata...
^.^DESIRE^.^

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

welcome to malaysia..!!...ARGH..!!

lets talk bout...SOME...ding dong empty minded malaysians(DRIVERS)...well...such as drivers....WATS RONG WITH USING THE SIGNAL LIGHT..??...IZIT RONG..!!...UR CAR WILL BREAK DOWN IZIT IF U USE IT..!!....ITS PLACE THERE FOR A FRIGGIN REASON...!!!....ok...n 2...those stupid ass driverss...ppl already put signal wan2 reverse parking...still wan to stick so near....ur RUSHING TO DIE IZIT..!!...ish..!!...n those ahh....those...driverss..when they saw other cars wan2 go to the other lane...they'll speed up...!!...OMG..!!!....BE TAHAN LIAO ...WA KA LE KONG..!!...=.='....ANYWAY..!!...went gym today...:D...tehee...well actually i wanted to go at noon...but...kinda lazy...so go at night luu...tehee...okok...i have another topic..!!...:D

REASONS DESIREE GO TO GYM(OTHER THAN TO LOOSE WEIGHT)
1-coz theres hot GAY guys...haha...can wash eyes...:D..tehee..
2-it makes u feel like ur loosing the burger u ate juz now..
3-the shower there is cool..!!..n no matter how much water u use..u dont need to care..
4-refer to reason no.1...LOL...
5-to pass time...coz i have nth better to do....:D..
6-refer to reason 3..hahahahhaha....
7- refer to all the above reasons..!!...:D


TEHEEE...OK TATS ALL FOR NOWW...TATA...:D...TOMOLOW WORK..!!:(...

^.^DESIRE^.^

Monday, June 1, 2009

recent happeninss....^.^

hehe....let me c...where shall i start..??hmm...ok...last week...jacs Bday...it was at republic...:D...MR adrain was there...:D....it was fun...we were all catching up with each other...this n that...then...time juz fly...:D...then the next day...went dinner with TING TAI SHEEEE...lol..we were catchin up also...haha...talked bout lots n lots of thigss...from college to trainng to our FUTURE..!!...woo..scary...haha..then..GUESS WAT...WE SAY MR ADRAIN....LOL...then...we chatted lah...then..after that...a few days later...lol...i went yam cha with MS YAM aka...SI WEI...lol..did the same thing...talked bout training....N STUFF...GOSSIP..!!...tehee..then...went home...:D...then after that..!!...lol...went 1U...with eigen,nick AKA BIMBO..n kevin...with mr adrian...:D....we had...SO MUCH FUN..!!...LOL...then...today...malcolms birtday..!!...tehee...went starbucks SS15 ....:D....with almost the whole gang...n MR ADRIAN..!!...hahaha...bough this huge cake 2KG...=.='...1KG was smashed onto bday boys FACE..!!...tehee...it was fun lah...hehe..then tomoloe..MOVIE..N SUSHI..!!...:D...hehe...then then then...after tat....HAHAHHA...no lah...no more d....no planss...YET..!!...LOL...:D....hehe...overall...i really had a great time..it really cheers me up from everything...:D...hehe...k lahh..needs to go sleeps d....its 2.30am worr...need to sleep...hehe...k lah...tata...muaxxx....

^.^DESIRE^.^

Sunday, May 31, 2009

I UPDATE WOR..!!

lol...long time didnt update d...guess its cuz im kinda busy...n stuff...I WENT TO THE DENTIST..!!>...SACRY TILL..!!n yeaa...itss sucha llong story lah...been out with coll buddyss...:D...tehee...but not clubbing lah..LOL...tehee...im kinda phobia d...watever i eat also..i scared...n i dont dare to drink sweet n cold drinks anymore...:(...i dont wan2 go back to the dentist..:O....itss.....1.30am now...LOL..tehee...im kiinda ya noe...hahha...im supposed to sleep...tomolow...WORK..!!...aih..!!...oi hope training endss ASAP...!!!....i soo m not enjoying it...:(...im trying to...its juz tat...theres so many things in my mind rite now...duno which one to think first...:/...haih...N GUESS WAT...i only took 2 sticks of ciggie today..!!..:/...hopefully ill stop...ONE DAY...ya noe...sooner or later...u never noe...cz of this dentist phobia i have..:/...i dont even dare to drink to much coffee anymore..:(...haih..!!...tomolow...work...n the only thing i can n would drink rite noe..is...H2O....at room temperature..!!:)...mayb ill loose weight..U NEVER NOE..!!!...:/...teheee...k lah...tata for now...n really sorry if no pics....coz je tres deteste uploading picks on blogss...itss sooo sloww..!!...ANYWAY...NEED TO GO BATH THEN SLEEPS lioa...k lahh..tehee...TATA...

^^DESIRE^^

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

anger..... one n only thing I cannot control

I'm in the laundry now Lol.....waiting....
Let talk bout anger..... Since I'm bored..lol
I really don't understand..... Like seriously..
I'm trying my very best to control mine....
its very hard to think logically n clearly when ur angry.... n I really hate those situations ....
But I am trying my best... N hope others around me is doin the same too.... Coz I will get angry then others r angry n use me as their Ermm...wat u call tat... Ermm...pillow...?? Lol .... Yea... I will get very frustrated ..... N hope I won't have to face these ppl rite...Lol...Haih.... No comment ppl

Thursday, May 14, 2009

CANT SLEEP..!

i cantss believe it ..!...I CANT SLEEP..!!..DAMM...haih..!!..
owhh well..soo...blog luu....hmmm..let me c....i juz watched STAR TREK..!!it was..
i cannt believe im saying this..but..it was NICE..:D....good..!!..:D....n ermm..im kinda into this song....BOOM BOOM POW..!!...BEP..!!>..woo....which makes me wana club even MORE..!!..i wan club wei..!!...:(...so long didnt club d..=.='....ishh....haih.....tomolow..WORK..!...damm...juz thinkin of work makes me sleepy..!...ishh...!!...wat else....owhh..i almosty bought a new dress...ALOMOST....which means i didnt ok..!!...:D...so pround...tehee..lol...but it was PWEETY..:(...haih....owhh well...i can buy better ones in the NEAR future rite..!!...tehee..k lah..noww...I CANT WAIT FOR ANGELS N DEMONS THE MOVIE...to be out..!!..:D..lol...tata for now...:/....
...<3...DESIRE...<3...

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

OMGG..

my cupboard RUNTUH D..!!...omgg....=.=''...which made me skip gym..!!...AGAIN...!!...second time d..:(...yerr...damm...stupid...then my bro bought another new one...BUTT...ITSS SMALLER..!!...WAYY SMALLER...n also those ...ermm..ya noee....the one u can like put together urself tat one..haha...lol..then...no use..itss sooo tiny ya noe..!!..SOOO TOMOLOW...IM ON A MISSION TO BUY A NEW ONE..!!...butt..i feel bad also lah..i mean...he was nice enough to buy me a new one..:(...but...haih...but but...im still gone use tat one mah...for my formal clothes n kitchen stuff...rite..:/..heee....yerr..i still feel bad lah....buy i cant stand looking at it lah..i cant even look at my clothes...:(...coz its to small...so everything cramp up liao..:(...k lahh hopefully i will get it lah yea...tomolow...:)...tehee...k lah...:D...tata

Sunday, May 10, 2009

wat a life..!!

OMGG...so many things happened..!!....TO MANY..!...it juz made my year ever worst..!!...n i think i need SHOPPING...to cure me...:(...yerr....sometimes i noe its my fault but..this time...ITS NOT..!...so why me..??....why ah.....why everytime u wan sumting u never get it..but the one thing that u noe u never wanted juz keep on coming..!!...can sumone save me from thing very complicated crap.....!!...OMGG...haih...later another day of...WORK...!!..well..today is like The day for me....so if everything is still ok..then....ma ok lohh...BUTT....BUTT..if its not...!!>.i will kiss my training bye bye...!!i mean for this one lah..i mean i will change lol..!!...hahaha..k lah need to go d..:(...tata..

Thursday, May 7, 2009

dammitt...!!

lol..sory for my tittle...i seriously dont know wat to put...lol....anyway...haih..these few days of work wass....dammmneezz....why..?...may its coz i have nth to do then when i wanted to use my precious time to di sumting else...im ALWAYSS ANNOYED MBY THE PPL THERE...wats rong with them..!!...can they juz leave me alone..!!...n i finish reading my book d...LOL..:D....I M LOVING IT..!!ITSS AWESOME..!!.....its so amazing..!!...sooo...unpredictable...!!....i love it..n im plannig to buy another book also...WRITTEN BY THE SAME AWESOME AUTHOR..!!....WHICH IS......THE AWESOME MAN HIMSELF...DAN BROWN...!!!....i love hiss books...its so amazing how one could rite so well....placing all the point exactly where they should be...soo....complete...soo...perfect..!!...no boredom at all..!!...the the story line...iss..WOW...!!...every single thing is connected...its like a mind turning machine...!!...i makes u think...makes u wonder...n most importantly...!!IT SURPRISES ME..!!ALL THE WAAYY...owhh ya n i have to go work early...DAM DAM EARLY....LIKE 8 AM EARLY..!!...NOT COZ I HAVE TO GO IN KITCHEN...ITS COZZ IM FOLOWING MY BROTHER..!!!...

Monday, May 4, 2009

hmmmm...:D

ok..today wass...great...:D..why..???...cozz..for the first time... C CLUB...i BUSSY..!!WORR..!!
WWUUAAA...!!!...hahaha...at least i get to like ya doe..do sumting instead of juz standing there..!!...my gatss...haha...lol...and...today...break went to times...as usual...:D..then...while i was walking pass the ermm..duno how to say...juzz...sumwhere on 6th floor..can look down to the middle there..haha..anyway..i..WITHOUT INTENTION...NOT KNOWING WAT WAS DOWN THERE...IF I KNEW...I WONT EVEN DARE TO LOOK....BUT IT WAS TO LATE...I SAW IT......its its..its...... A VINCCI...SHOE SALES..!!...OMGGG.....AHHHH..!!..SALE WORR..!!...N N N N ...GOT REBATE SUMORE..:D...YAY...I WAS SOOO..OMGING..COZ COZ..I DONT WAN2 SPEND D MAH...BUTT...i broke the rule...:(...i spent...i bought 2 items...1 flats n one heels..:(...sorry...i noe i noee....:(....i felt so bad after that..but but...i cant help it...its sooo shiny n pweety..!!....:(....i didnt wan2..:(....anyway...yea...bought it..:/.....n i cleaned my room..!!...:D....n n n n....i saw sumting COOL...at tat D.I.Y shop...its a big bag tat is use to vacuum pack like ur clothes n stuff..!!...sooo...WITH MUCH AMAZMENT..!!...I BOUGHT IT..!!...n its usefull ok...i kinda took all the clothes tat i dont wear anymore n vacuum pack it...IT WAS SO FUN..:D.....hahhaa...lol.....!!...then...i did sumting...well actuelly i copied from sumone lah...tat person took picture of all her heels n posted it on fb...soo....i guess...i would be fun if i did the same thing too..!!...since i dont noe how many i have..LOL..HAHA...okok....heres the pic..!!...muazzz....loveesss..!!!!

TOTAL..??....14 PAIRS..!!!...:D....TEHEE...

^.^DESIRE^.^

Saturday, May 2, 2009

tres tres AMUSANT..!!...JE NE SAIS PAS..!!!....hahahahha...

ahhaha...okok...sumting very very funny juz happened...ok..i was about to sleep rite..then...suddently my bro call me n say he reach home d n he forgot his keys...so i had to go open the gate for him lohh..then then rite...cozz my air con like duno why so dam hot lohh...then..when he got out from the car i asked him to ask ppl to fix it lah..coz its dam hot...ONE MONTH D..!!...then when i look at my air con...ermm..the thingy...ya noe the box with the fan...i forogt wats i call...the one outside the house tat one..ahaha..i realised tat the fans not even running..!!!...n the funny thing is..my air con in on..!!....omgg..!!...soo...my bro was like..where is ur control...so he went in to my room..then i gave him the remote lah..then..he was like....OMGGG......OF COZ NOT COLD LAH....U GO SET IT AT "HEAT".....=.='....I WAS LIKE...WWTTTFFF...!!!!...OMGG...AFTER ONE MONTH OF SUFFERING..!!!...it was all the controls fault..!!...n the fact tat i woke up 3am this morning coz...cannot tahan d..so i tot coz the air con long time didnt clean d...so i go clean it...IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NITE..!!...DAMMIT...LOL...funny till..!!!.....ahahaha....lol...k lahh..im back to sleeps d...lol..HAHHAHA...OKOK...TATA...:D..
^.^DESIRE^.^

Friday, May 1, 2009

funny funny....

juz came back from gym..:D..heee...then after tat i go eat dinner..lol...hahahha...the half way through rite....i heard a very very loud bang ...wondering wats tat...lol....hahaha...anyway...
its funny rite...how small little things could make u so happy...then...u wonder...wats so amusing..??...why does this small little thing juz made ur day...sumting tat u think u dont really bother ....but actuelly...it means so much to u...THAT small little thing...juzz made me happy...it juz made my day...:D..im not entirely jumping with joy...haha..but..i juzz feel better..at least there is sumting tat could cheer me up from this years bad bad luck..lol...no one really wonders...those small things they do..could make u feel soo...relieved...soo...alive...:D...n u cant thank them for doin tat..coz...it will juz make u look funny n lame..haha...cozz...they never thought that the things they do means so much to u..:D...im loving my frens...:D..coz ...they always remind me that..no matter how hard life could be...u still have to move on....:/...living life to the fullest..!!...:D...thats wat im trying to do now...:D...not to complain ..but to accept...not to run from it..but to face it...:D...hope i suceed in this...n hope tat once in a while...that small little thing could happend...juz to cheer me up...:D...
^.^DESIRE^.^

MY MC..!!..AHAHAHHA..

heloww helooww again..!!..
ok today...i kinda lazy wan go work...tehee..soo...i ma mc lohh...:D>.
heee...since i have nth to do also wad if i go..soo..yea..hehe..
now currently ...m lazzziinggg...hehe...so i blogg luu...i still cant get over the zara sales.!!..
i mean of the management..!...gosh..!!...anywayss....yeaa..later m goin to gym...n i figure out a way to control my shopping madness..!!...is to go gym whenever i feel like i wan to shop..:D...
why gym..??..why not juz stay at home..??
BECOZZ....------->
-IN GYM I HAVE NTH TO BUY..:D...BUT..IF IM AT HOME...I CAN GO ONLINE N VIEW THOSE BLOGS ...WITH NICE PPWEETY CLOTHES..!!..
-I GET TO LOOSE WEIGHT...BUT IF AT HOME....IL END UP EATING..!!..

so yea..hahha..tats y...LOL....i think i ate alots of choco these few days...cozz my bro juzz came back from AUS..!!...n he bought choco..LOTSS N LOTCC OF CHOCO..!!....YUMMY...fatss..!!!!>..nooooo..!!>...i think i cannot eat anymore...or ill GAIN WEIGHT..!!..n..m not looking foward to tomolow...=.='......coz its another boring day at work..!..TATS Y..!!..gosh..!!...k lah..i wan go watch movie d..lol...tata...:D..
^.^DESURE^.^

Thursday, April 30, 2009

day off..!!....:D...sales..!!

helo ppl...went to zara sales today..!!>.
didnt bought much...the stupid management sucks...!!...stupid ppl tat never make use of the brain..!!>...dammit..!!...anyway...i waited almost 2 hours juz to que up n go in..then...went in....took 7 itemss....but...ended up with 4....BUT BUT BUT...!!...those r not for me....i bought a cardi for daddy.....2 tops for mommy...n only one for me..:/...c....im not a shopaholic...:D...i buy stuff got ppl tooo...!!..hehe...lol.....then..after that went to college..then...ermm..yea...walked around n waited for mom to come pick me up..:D...then home loh..tehee..:D.....hmmm...tomlow..im gona go on...MC..!!....TEHEE...!!!....buahahhahaha....MC WORR...ahhaha...lol.....hahhaha....k lahh goin to starbucks with mommy soon..i mean now..lol,...hhaha...k lahh...tata pplz....
^.^DESIRE^.^

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

CANT WAIT ...CANT WAIT..!!!.

yayy..!!...DESIREE IS SUPERB HAPPY...
WHY..??..
coz cozz..tomolow...I GET TO GO SHOPPING..!!!
WAREHOUSE SALES..!!!...WEEEEE....:D..
yay...WOO HOO...juzz thinkin of it makes me happy...!!...:D..
^.^..!!...eeee....but....later gona be busy....for sure..:(...N
...!!>..MY MOMMY SAY I FAT D..!!....OKOK...DIET DIET..!!..
everyday lunch..??...MILO..!!...:D....it really makes u full wan ya noe..!!.
:D..heh..n gym of coz..but since mom is here..ill go after she leave lah..:D..
ok tats all for now..ill be headin for my lovely shower soon..:D...tata...
^.^DESIRE^.^

Monday, April 27, 2009

finding a reason...

today another day of kitchen...i guess..i really dont enjoy it at all...the only reason why im still goin to training is coz i have to finish it...n its only been one month...but to me ..its like 3 months d..=.='...i feel so dead working in the kitchen...the usual happy me has turned to never smiled...im juz finding every reason i can so tat i could smile n actuelly tell my self that this is not tat bad...rite..??..but..i cant seem to find tat reason...the fact tat there is none...today after work ,mom came n fetch me...:/....then went home dinner...the now...:/...haih...i really wanto end this now..!!...my gatss...haih...i could spend my time better compare to now...so dead...:(..
DESIRE

Sunday, April 26, 2009

funny funny day...!!

hmm..lets c...today the pastry kakak off...:D..so i have the whole pastry to myself..!:D..
lol...haha...:D...but...after my break ...which is around 3 sumting..!!...the restaurant is freakin empty..!!..tat meanss..no orders...which means...I STONE THERE..!!...so freakin bored wei..!!...owhh yaa..n n...i spill OIL...on my uniform when i was try very very hard to open the bottle of oil for another chef.....=.='...dammit..damm ..!!...n...went to central coz my sis pick me up there...n mommy is here too.....becoz she is not so familiar with central ...so my sis called her n said sumting dam dam funny...

the conversation
sis: hey mom..where u..??reach d..??
mom: ya reach d...Im goin....
sis:NO DONT GO ANYWHERE...STAY WHERE U R WE WILL GO THERE FIND U..!!..
MOM:...=.='...i noe how to go up lah..!!!
sis:owhh ok...we will wait for u upstairs then..:D
(BACKGROUND:ME LOLING LIKE MAD..!!...)

.:D...after that we went pyramid for dinner..:D...not tat tasty...:P...haha lol...anyway...
heres another funny part...we went to jusco...to buy stuff...then...when i was heading for the cheese section..i saw one couple...then i overheard them said sumting...'ai i wan the cheese tat will melt when i cook with my mushroom...!!!...LOL...i wanted to lol..but...im not tat mean..!!..haha..anyway...then...they r quite near where im stading lah...then...then funny this happened..!!

SIS:U R MAKIN SANDWICH FOR ME N MOM TOMOLOW MORNING..
ME:(QUITE LOUD)EXCUSE ME...!!!....O.O...!!
COUPLE:LOOK AT ME N STARE...!!...0.O...??...
ME:(PAISEH TILLLL...!!!!!)OWH SORRY(WALKS TOWARD MY SIS N TOLD HER THE STORY..!!....OMGG..!!..

hahaha...lol...rite..!!....then after that..we home n i went to do my laundry...:D...
haha...funny funny...paiseh leh..!!....=.='...haha...anyway..tomolow...another day of work...
k lah....tata..!!..
^.^DESIRE^.^...

today...yet again..

heloo ppl...i realise tat my blog is soo full of word instaed of beautiful pictures n stuff..
but i guess..im kinda lazy to post up pictures coz itss so sloww..anyway...today work was ok..they had a new menu comin up..beef...beef n beef...i always think...m i really gona be in the kitchen for the rest of my entire life..??..fact tat my interest is rapidly decreasing...day by day...i jzuz feel tat my life is so meaningless..now..im thinking whether i should change my future profession..??..m i really up for kitchen..??...but the kitchen life n my attitude...IS...TOTALLY DIFFERENT...i like to have fun..talk to ppl...ya noee...n still be able to dress nice n look good...n not sweat n not bein in the same thing at the same place doin the same thing...but..i really duno wat to choose... can anyone help..??...all i want a job tat i can work n enjoy at the same time...for those who noes me..u alll noe i love shopping...so why do i shop ...??...bcos i wan2 dress up..:D...i love fashion..!!>.:D.....but...cullinary wont get me anywhere near to my loves...:(...so i have no idea...for now..i will juz finish wat ive already done halfway..n c wat will happen...but seriously..i have no idea...:/...haih...sad case...k lah..i gtg...tata...:/...
DESIRE

Saturday, April 25, 2009

today today today..!!

hmm.. let me c...today was...pweety much the same..
i guess..but...i really cant stand ppls attitude sumtimess..!!..
wat u think i m..UR BANK..!!..money lender..??...ppl like that...i cannot stand..
if once or twice...i still ok...i have problems like these to sumtimes...
BUT...EVERYTIME..!!...u lame or juz PLAIN STUPID..!!..
OWHH MYY GATT..!!!...i didnt say no doesnt mean im willing..!!..
which part of i dont wan2 make a big fuss bout it..do u dum asses dont understand..!!
i could be mean n juz reply...no money ah..??..DONT EAT LAH..!!..stupid ass..!!..
these ppl juz dont get it..!!....i cannot stand it anymore..!!...i will not say anything...but...
u will be pushed to the side...n everytime when u aske me the same thing again..TRUST ME....
ILLNOE WAT TO ANSWER..!!...ANYWAY..!!...reached work...hmm..then...stand there for awhile...this n that...as usual...actuelly i wanted to like stay late in kitchen...but...at 6.30...IM TOO SLEEPY..!!....sooo..heh..lol....n n n n n...sumting DAM DAM DAM FUNNY...happened..!!>.<....ok..juz now ..i was supposed to go gym rite..then..ok lahh i drove there..then..i wanted to part the parking near to the gym...but...i went to the rong one..haha...coz i forgot..>!!!...then...i went out from the rong parking space n turm another round to the one i wanted to park at...LOL...then...i was like...hmm...if there got parking i park..if none..then..bye bye...MANATAU..!!...really got worr...SUMORE IN FRONT OF THE MAIN DOOR..OME..hahha..lol..then..i was like..ok lohh...then..while i was walking....my tummy duno why...dont feel so good...soo...i ended up didnt go...=.='...coz coz ...what if i half way jogging my tummy cram..!...MAHH DIE LAHH...!!..:D....SAFETY FIRST RITE..!!...i learn form the best...!!...MY MOMMY..!!..lol...:D...k lahh its 12amam sumting d...need to go sleeps d..tata...
^.^DESIRE^.^

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

yet another day..

today..had to use KTM..n..MNRL..!!..
dammit..i tell u..theres is lame lame..TANTE..!!..she so lame..!!
im obviously standing at a spot tat only fits me...leaning against the wall..but she go squish in..!!..
n the best part is..there is still lotss of space..!!..argghh...ANYWAY...then..reach work...ate b.fast..
then WORK..i really have nth more to say about the pastry chef in C club..!!...yea.i admit...she noess alittle sumting...she has the knowledge...of...A TERM 2 STUDENT..>!!..she doesnt even noe wat folding or creaming method..!!..she wanted to bake cookies...then..she took out a recipe book...i read it she read it....she didnt follow the method at all...n she is spoiling the mixer..!!..she is like killing all those lovely pastrys..!!...she dont love them..she juz work 100% for the sake of money....not coz she loves wat she is doin..!!i feel so sad for the pastryss......:(..she torture them...=.='....then..when i tried to tell her..how the recipe goes...she said..SHUT UP..!!!...FUCK HEER MAN..!!DAMMIT..!!...okok...i cannot curse..!!...anyway...!!..yea...i dont noe...ill try my very best to survive...:/....the fact tat i still dont really noe whether i belong in the kitchen or not..!!...u c...i tot of this...if i continue working as a chef...then...i will be working 6 days a week..which = to maximum usage of energy...which means..i will juzz lazz after work or even during my day offz..which means..i wont max out my FUTURE...credit card..!!....but...if i change to sumting tat i think i up to...then...i will end up maxing my credit card...which equals to never ending dept..!!...sooo....YEAA...stresss stress..!!...nth more to say...i will c how this year goes...since its not a good yea for me..:(...anyway...i have to sleep..n face another day of C Club...!..:(..:/...
DESIRE

Monday, April 20, 2009

no turning back...

have u ever been in a situation that u noe tat u cant do shit bout it anymore..
cozzz wat is done is done..!..no matter how u sulk bout it...no matter how u try to make things
better for urself knowing tat there is nth ellse u can do..u still try..?...untill irrelevant ideas starts to pop in ur head...sum are so dumb tat u dont even noe why u tot of tat..
weell...tats how i m now..nth more to say or do...i dont think i like this year..year of 2009...
so many things..happened..from this to tat...from the thing tat u never tot would even happen..
to sumting tat u noe tat will.. i always tell myself...no sacrifice to victory.. but.. i dont really always stick to it...coz..its juz ...well..its not easy...for me..i did so many things...tat i tot was ok...tat i tot no one would find out, tat i could juz cover it up when time comes....but..mayb im juz to naive...cozz...out of 10...only 3 things worked out...others...r juz...such a surprice to me..:/..
well...i think im gona change my quote...to...C'EST LAVIE..!!..funny rite...cozz...i juz realised sumting...ur life would be harder if u say its hard... there r so many things i wish i didnt do..
but..wishes never come true...so why still wish for sumting tat u think u could have or could happen...let the past stay as the past...never look back...n try my very best to cover up wat ive done...sumtimes...i feel so spoiled...not by my parents...but...by myself...i never think far...i guess tats the thing bout me...im good at giving advice to other ppl....but not to myself...:/..
i have learned my lesson...n im sorry....tats all i could say....i noe its to late...but...i will try my very best to change into a better person...
DESIRE

Friday, April 17, 2009

thinking..n thinking..

today...went to work..as usual..nth much happened..
did wat i do alwayss...which equals to sianz ness.
i think i think to much....why..??..
theres so many things tat is runnig through my head tat i cant concentrate
during work...
the question of...m i goin for degree ..?..
but do i really fit cullinary..??
can i survive in the kitchen...??
should i cahnge..??..but ill waste all the money i invested on this..
but whats whoud i change..??
wat if i changed d...i still end up in this situation..??
how would i noe whether its really for me...!!..
OMGG..SOOO MANY QUESTIONS..!!..
but..zero answers...!!...
someone save me plz..!!
T.T....DESIRE.....T.T.....

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

SKIPPED WORK.>!

ok..today i skipped work...
coss i wass too tired...i need sleep...
butt..its my fault lahh..heh..cozz im the one who slept dam dam..late lah..heh..sooo,,
anyway...lett talk bout today..i didnt SPENT..!!..SO tat meanss its day 2 for me..
hmm
wat did i do today..
i went n do my laundry...then pass by this goreng pisang stall..
i really dont have a clue why tat stall is alwayss packed with ppl..!!>.
the line is longg till..!!..
my goshh..n my say she wan to eat...then i was like..WAATT...but instead of goin to tat
owh so pack stall....i went to the one next to it..heh..
butt..sumting struct my mind as i was leaving with my food...how could they be so happy working ??..wat is there to be happy about..juzz selling rm2 worth of food to a customer ..
they look as if they juzz sold a very very expensive car...=.='...which is higher in return...
butt...juzz a small amout of returm..they could be so ...satisfied d...i juz dont get..mayb i should think their way..so tat i could save money...bein happy even though they have no brands..nth much...ANYWAY..!!so as i wass saying..after laundry..we went mid valley....cozz my sis working there to today...so..i figured..since she is working there...i could go swimming...:)..soo..i went swimming...haha..lol...then..i saw tonss off hwat..GAY...guyss..haha..lol..seriously...lol..i feel so sad..hahahahha...lololololol....anyway....after tat...i bathed...n changed...then..while i was walking....i cant help but to notice ppl looking at me...IM NOT PERASAN OK...im juzz telling the truth...ya i looked at them..tats y i noee..=.='...mayb coz...i wore a bright purple dress...n swinging my gucci with my E71...IM NOT SNOBISH OR SHOW OF...im juzz saying how i felt at tat time...but...those things only will last for awhile...not for long..which made me thing...so wat if i have all these...do i deserve it..??..i didnt work for it..??..all the new suff...while other ppl sre working their ass off...juzz to buy a gucci..i juzz used my extrass juzz like tat...with no work needed...but..the difference is..they saved n saved n their income has an input..mine doesnt...i only have output...soo..tats why...im trying my very best to stopp...so after gym..i went to find my sis..then..SHE TOLD ME SHE WILL BE FINISHING LATER..!!..dammit..so i went for dinner..then......I WENT ZARA..!!...butt..I DIDNT BUY ANYTHING...:(...but the top i wanted to buy last time...as in likee...2 dayss ago..NO MORE..!!...:(...T.T...!!>..i wanted to try on a few stuff...butt..b4 i get myself buying sumting again..my sis called n asked me to go where she workss NOW..!...normally i will say..wait lah....10 minss...buttt...i put all the cloths back..n went off..!!...I ACTUELLY FELT happy..tat i didnt buy.anything..:D...i hope this is gona last ...:/...
ok tats all..need to go sleeps d..later i cant wake up...tata for noww..
^-^DESIRE^-^

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

2week of training..:/

hmm..2nd week...wat can i say bout it..
so far so good lohh.
i mean its ok...i the sence of the ppl..but..
yea...C club is ok..i guess..
havent really learned tat much yet..but..
i mean..its only second day rite..
today..nth much to do lah..
which made me stone...which = me day dreaming..lol.
i tot of alotss of things today..
its funny..how u always say time past soo sloww..but...
actuelly.... tat only happends when ur not having fun or enjoying urself..
haha..reallity is..i dont noe lah..
to me..time passes soo darrn fast..i remebered the old term 1 days..haha..lol...damm fun
i still remember ...my first day or orientation...how i was soo blurr...n so scared..coz i didnt noe anyone...n now...im in my second year d..lol..
so many things happened last year..the year of...2008..wow...365 days..is so fast..!!..LOL..
haha...i miss those timess...not all...but...all the happy timess...
the more u grow n learn the more u noe n the more things u need to worry bout..
likee..whether ur fit for wat ur studin..??where u gona proceed after ur diploma..whether to work or to proceed with studiess...n MONEY..!!..i actuelly felt so bad now...using money like water..like my parents print money...this is by far the most stupid mistake ive done..!!..when i look back at wat ive used them on...n wat i bought...i feel so lame..=.='...how come i never tot of all these when i was swiping my card..??..or paying for sumting very expensive...im trying very hard to change...to me more dicipline n responsible...n try my very best to patch up wat ive used...coz now..there is no in..there is only out..so i need to work so tat there is an input...n not only output...but..its hard when i have my trainig goin...soo..mayb during my term 5...i guess...i wont even take extra french class anymore..:/...its not tat i over used..i havent reach that limit..but..at least i havent lah..i mean...itss still never to late..but serious...one more BAG...then im gone d..=.='...i noe i noe...WTF rite...heh...if u noe me..u noe wat i mean...soo...im gona update my blog...n do a countdown..:D...my goal..??...untill i patch all ive used...N IT WONT TAKE FOREVER K..!!...ishh...i didnt use tat much...:P...but..i does take time...im aiming by end of 2010...i can patch almost everything up d..ill give myself 2 years...but..will i still spend...??...i wont say ill entirely stop...but...i will reduce by 90%...UNLESS...its really cheap n good...n no shopping..!!...ill only be spending on transport n food for now...:/...sad sad sad...:(...i guess i have to get use to it...imagine...when im working ...n i have a credit card..!!...OMGG...LOL..
k lahh..i guess tats all for now..tartar...
^-^DESIRE^-^

Thursday, April 9, 2009

MY FIRST DAY OFF..!!:D

hmm..let me c..wat i did today...
woke up at erm..duno wat time..
wait...11 i think...or 10 am...
EARLY LEH..!!..haha
then..went ss15 to do my laundry ..:D...then
saw pei chin n hon meng..haha...didnt noe they do laundry there too..tehee...
anyway..then...while the laundry is erm...laundrying...haha..lol..
i wen to coll n get chef shoe...=.='...haha...then...saw chef karam..:D...then..had lunch....
BUT...one bad bad thing happened...my car kena clam...AT COLLEGE...dammit..!!..so my rm 50 fly away...=.='...the tat time my wallet..no more cash...=.='...dongnezz..damm..sumore...haih...
then....i went take my laundry...then after tat..i WENT TO A WAREHOUSE SALE..!!...didnt c anything lahh..cozz it was nth much...
bought a clutch n one heels..tats all...=.='....but but but..then...i went home..clean my room..
haha..then..after that..went fetch my sis..then go pyramid...=.=''....then juz remembered...TOPSHOP STUDENT LOG IN IS TODAY..!!...haha..soo...i went in lah..but the line wass dam dam longg..i wanted to take pic...butt..too manyy...ppl...haha...n i dont think its allowed lah..hahahha...lol...so i bought sumting....heee....but 3 only...actuelly i wanted to buy 6...!!..but then i told myself..HAVE TO PICK...cannot buy all..!!..sooo...i pick 3 out of 6..hee...good leh...but..i still spent alot lah...!!...rm3oo...!!...dammit..ok..no more no more..tehee...but but but...itss sooo pweeetyy....:D..heee...tehee.owhh...yaa...n i ate a very very tasty dinner too..at ole-ole bali...AHHH....NOO..MONEYY...NOOO...!!...ahaha...k lah..tats all for now..tata...tomolow work LOL...!!...
^-^DESIRE^-^

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

2nd day of training...n everyelse..:D

ok...i take back all my mean comments on c club..
its not TAT BAD..i exaggerated alittle..i think..tehee..
today was kinda ok...i guess...mayb coz yerterday wan my 1st day.....ehehhe.
anyway... my break is one hour..n i can go anytime..:D..but i normally go break at 3 to 4..
hmm...i m kinda scared...cozz..everytime i go for break...i wonder around PAVILION..!!..
fact that its im fav mall..soo...u can tell why im scared...i dont even dare to walk pass zara..!!..
i told myself...'WALKING IN MY UNIFORM...EWWW!!'...tats the good thing..the bad thing...isss.... after work...i duno wat time my bro come fetch me..soo...if im not in da kitchen...n not im my uniform...I WILL GO IN TO ZARA..!!...N I WILL TRY ON SUMTING...N MAYB..I WILL BUY..my training is 3 monthss...which mean around 90 days...imagine...everyday...me..comin home..with a new top...or anything lah..!!
omg..soo..im gona..be in the kitchen..untill my bro comess..!!..
but...let me c wat i bought today...ok...2 books n 1 cd TAT IS SOO USELESS..!!...total damage..??...rm130++....F..yea...soo...i didnt but magg...instead...i told myself..everytime i wan to view mag...ill juz...go times book store...n read...:D...so during my break ill be there...haha...lol..
owh ya..the first book is by DAN BROWN(MY FAV AUTHOR)..ANGELS N DEMONS...:D...the second one...hahah...its by alexis hall..IN THE RED....this is about how she was a shopaholic n how she used her credit card n ending up in a huge mess...i bought it coz of tat..haha...:D...n tat cd...well..itss learning french ....BUT....stupid me..didnt listen to my lecturer...to not to but these cds coz its useless..but i didnt listen..n go buy...then now..ended up in a mess..=.='... i mean wasted my money...rm5o..!!!!fck!!!....it could have lasted me for 5 days...IF I DIDNT BUY STARBUCKS..!!...heh...im finding another cheaper drink lah..!!gosh..!.....so if i did...it will last me...2days...hahaha...:D...teheee...desiree is trying her best not to spend d lah...but..i am spending on erm..wats tat cal...owhh ya...my future french class...:D..my figure went from 24 to 17...:(...since a month ago or 2 months ago...so = i used in total of 7+ 4...=...11....MAAAA CHAAUU HAAII...!!...no more no more..!!...i spend dam alots d..sumore planing to buy new phone..!!...DAMMIT..!....my figure drop so fast..!!...any part time jobs..?..can intro..??...IM BROKE..!!..ok..tats all for now...need to read my book..tehee..:D
^-^DESIRE^-^

Monday, April 6, 2009

1ST DAY OF HELL.>!!!(TRAINING)

OMGG...!!!
ARGGHH...!!!F...!!...DAMMIT..!!.....MCH..!!
ggrrr....!!...
C club SUCKS..!!!...LIKE NO YESTERDAY..!!
im soo freakin tired..!!...WHY..??..
not coz i have to much stuff to do..cozz..I HAVE NTH T0 DO..
AT ALL...!!...WTF..!!..
i stnad there like doll owh..!!..my gawdd..!!
I MIZZ SHOOK..!!....
my gatss.....how i wish...i didnt choose here..
HOW I WISH I COULD TURN BACK TIME...
my life would be much better...waay...!!..better..!!
haih..ok i promise im not posting emo stuff....:)..
so anyway....i stoned in pavi..from 7 to 9 sumting..!!..
my gosh..!!!...I WANTED TO GO SHOPPING D TAT..!!..
but tak jadi...!!=.='....!!....arghh...!!...
my gatss...imagine....3 months...everyday...i come home with sumting new...NOOO...
NO SHOPPING..!!NOO...!!...:(....arghh..!!..
ok wish me luchss yea ppl...COZ ILL NEED ALL OF IT..!!..:(...
ok tata....im of to sleep...dam tired...:/...
^-^DESIRE^-^

Sunday, April 5, 2009

desiree is superbly bored..

hey pplz ....
im kinda very bored NOW...its ermm...wow...3.33am..im not kidin..haha..
n erm..not really sure why im not sleepy...
but actuelly i am...ya noe...its like...i look at my lappie then i feel soo frigin sleepy...
but when i go ly on my bed...=.='...i not sleepy anymore..=.='
hmm...since i have nth to do now...might as well juz blog..
hmm..ok...m goin to gym later...but b4 tat...tehee...mayb some shopping...:)...then...SUSHI..
tehee...if u noe me well...u should noe tat besides culinary n shopping....I HEARTS SUSHII TOO...tehee.. wont shop tat much though...have to give myself a limit...hmm...but..not sure wat figure am i gone use..hahaha...but its not gona be a big figure lah...juz a petit one..haha...:D..but..thank gwad they dont have GUCCI..in pyramid...if not i think im broke d...=.='... heh..yea..ANWAY...duno why these few dayss...im like craving for VERY VERY FATTENING FOOD...like...chocolate...n carl's jnr...=.='...then...coke...anything sweet n filled with carbsss...fatss....=.='.....i have gotta stop ....=.='....i eat to much....=.='....i think i should eat lesser...hmm...ok...but at least sushi is not tat oily rite...tehee...ok..my goal...to lose weight n look diff after my training...hahahhaa....hope i really reach it..owhh ya...n im actuelly thinkin to take french lessons...why..??..cozz i seriously need to improve lah...=.='...but...duno where to go...i have to be ready to face term 5 french...so i dont need to worry bout it to much when my finals come....n french rawks...if u actuelly noe how to speak n rite....which is wat i wan....n u can like gossip bout this ass hole rite infront of their face...n still smile...cozz...they dont understand..!!!woo hoo...haha...=.='...damm..im not sleepy wei..!!...i feel like ...hmm..now...i feel like swimming...!!..n playing tennis..!..gosh i miss tennis soo muchie..!!!...:(....how i wish i have time to play tennis...=.='....haih....k lah...ill go fb for awhile then....mayb ill get sleepy...:).....ok...tata....LOVEZZ...
^-^DESIRE^-^

Saturday, April 4, 2009

renewed...!!hahhaha..

ok...if u ppl who actuelly reads my blog..u will notice tat i deleted some...ermm...emo crap stuff...haha.....ANYWAY...yea...hmm..term 4 end d...juz like tat..wow...amazing how time flys rite?..haha...hmm..ok lets talk bout term 4...let me c...we had few new subs..like...ECON...O.O....
then we had ermm....owh ya..FRENCH..BONJOUR..!!...SALUT..!!!!^.^...tehee...haha...french was fun...:D....quite complicated...for me lah..heh...but...i juz hope tat i wont forget everything after my training in term 5...haha...hmm...wat else...but seriously...term 4 pass by dam fast....n i think my english lvl kinda detiriorate d...dam funny lohh...=.='...my mommy gona kill me...
owh...since i deleted most of the emos shemo crappy ding dong post d...im never ever gona post emo stuf anymore....coz..i only wan2 share my JOY..!!HAPPYNEZZ..!!hee...colourss...SHOPPING...!!..hahaha..owh ya...during term 4....i kinda did a big big damage on myself...regarding to my income tat is...wait..i can call it my income...ermm...my...allowence..??..yea...erm...wtv.haha..anyway....yea..i spent alot..!!..my gosh....SHOPPING..!!....is killing me...BUT I LOVE IT..SO SO SO...MUCHIEE..!!...itss sooo...fun...when u like ya noe..shop..n buy stuf..then when u c this awwsomee...top...n those HWATS HEELSS...n tat owh soo llovely...BAGGIE..!!...n tat superb comfort cardii...tat has an awwsome colour..!!...omgg..AHH....SHOPPING..!!!...BUUTT...i m...I AM...DESIREE IS...trying to control myself....n im very proud to say tat...i wnet to pavilion last monday...N I DIDNT BUY ANYTHING...AT ALL...pround lehh..ehehehhehhe....im pround too..>:D...owhh n i watch confession of a shopaholic d...buahahahha...itss sooo cool...omgg...watching tat movie makes me even wants to shop lah...haha..but i dont like the freezing the credit card part....tats MEAN.!!no one should do tat..!!...hahaha...anyway...today was a tough day for me...so many things happened..!!....but...m not gona talk bout it...soo..anyway..i think im getting sleepy d...hehe...which is good....coz i love sleeping..then...mayb tomolow...i will go gym...:D...cozz...coz of sumting....total emotiona breadown...made me eat alot alot..!!...:(....FATSS..NOO....GO AWAY..!!...so tomolow have to go gym....LOOSSEEEE SOMEE POUNDS...:)...heeee...ok..tats all i guess..tat for now...:D...hehe...k lahh...tar tar....LOVEZZ....

^-^DESIRE^-^